The day has come

The transition that I have been dreading has finally come.  Ava, the nanny that has been with us since Olivia was born is working her last week.  She is off to find a new family.  Olivia, contrary to what she believes, is off to kindergarten.  I am such a mix of emotions.

I am proud that Olivia has grown into such a capable and loving child.  However, Ava has become one of our family.  She has always been there.  She did as much raising and tending as I have...and sometimes more.  She is the one that got our kids through the mess of divorce by providing strong consistency, managing the disparity that caring for children of divorce brings.  She played neutral and allowed our children to be neutral during tough times.  She taught Olivia everything she needed to know to make this big step.  She showed Michael a tender, loving and forgiving sense of guidance when he needed it.  She was a tremendous back up for me when I needed another set of hands, a diversion, or a new perspective on what has been the reality for my kids.

We are all devastated that this time has come.  Ava...if you read this, know that you are loved.  You will always be a part of our family.  We will never forget you because we will carry you with us always.  You have changed each and every one of us.  We love you.